The babies are coming (tags: Naveen, Nero)

Naveen had finally got Mira to calm down and he heard Nita speak behind him. He turned to look at her, a grin on his face. "I can't get enough of her..she's so perfect." Mira stirred in his arms and he looked down to see her blinking up at him. He moved over to Nita's side and waited for her to sit up before carefully handing their daughter to her. Just as he did, he heard Narcisse starting to cry in the crib and he was instantly at his side. Naveen picked him up and carried him over to Nita as well. She hadn't gotten the chance to hold either of her children yet and he knew that she really wanted to. Once she had Mita situated and had some alone time with her, Naveen leaned down and let her hold Narcisse right next to their daughter. "They're beautiful Nita..." Naveen kissed her lightly and gently ran his hand over Mira's head and then Narcisse's. "I knew you would make it...you always do." He grinned and pulled back, letting her hold the two children on her own but stayed close just in case she was too weak to hold them for long.

Naveen smiled to himself as he watched Nita hold her children. They both looked like her so much...He couldn't believe that they were actually here..after eight months of waiting, she finally had her children. Though at her question, he blinked and it took him a moment to register what she had said. Naveen frowned and sat down on the bed next to her, caressing some of the hair of out of her face. "Don't say that Nita..you are going to be a wonderful mother. Really, you already are. You've been ready for a long time...You've become a mother to Chel and I can't thank you enough for that. These twins are going to love you so much." He leaned down and kissed her again before pulling back and gently ran his hand of Mira's head. Now that they were here..his greatest fear was that he wouldn't be enough for them. That he would be a danger to them. The last thing he wanted was to hurt them like he had hurt Chel...He wasn't ready to be a father when she showed up in his life and he quite honestly wasn't sure he was ready now. And Nero was the father of Narcisee...what if he didn't match up to his father and Nita would see that? She could realize that maybe she made a mistake marrying him and wanted to go back to Nero. He shuttered at the thought and bit the inside of his cheek.

Naveen was dragged out of his thoughts when he heard Nita ask him something and he looked up at her. "What? Oh...no. I was just thinking." He paused and looked down at the children in her arms. "I haven't been that great of a father to Chel. I missed out on eighteen years of her life and I've neglected her more so than I've spent time with her over this last year..and I don't know if I will be good enough for these two. I mean..you've seen how I react to things. What if I go off the handle and I hurt them? Or you? And with father being involved..." Naveen broke off, realizing that he was probably sound crazy and he would sound even more so once he said what he was about to say. "What if father is a million times better than I am at raising them and you start to think that you made a mistake marrying me? That he would be a better match...I've already lost you so many times..I don't know if I can do it again and survive it." He frowned and pulled his hand away from the children and bit his lip. It bothered him that he was so reliant on her but he loved her so much. When Nero took her away from him, he couldn't function. If she had died in childbirth, he would have let himself whither away just to be with her again. She was his weakness and everyone knew it.

Naveen pressed his lips together as she spoke. He knew she was right but a part of him was still insecure about it. When she had been with Nero, she had practically admitted to him that she was getting feelings for him. But he couldn't let that bother him now..she had come back to him, that's all that mattered. "You're right...you're right, I shouldn't be worried about it. That stuff just bothers me from time to time. I haven't had the best luck with relationships...after Evangeline..." Naveen paused and leaned forward on his knees, running a hand through his hair. He hadn't spoken much about her to Nita because he didn't want to make her uncomfortable. Evangeline had been a huge part of his life and then suddenly she was gone. He never really had his closure from it but Nita was the love of his life so it didn't matter now. "I just don't want you to wake up one day and leave. Evangeline was the one that left me and I didn't even know she was pregnant. I missed out on my daughter's life because of that and Chel blamed me for at the beginning, and she probably still does." He looked over at Narcisse, suddenly realizing how much his situation seemed to reflect Chel's. If Nero took him away, he could blame Nita when he grew up and he didn't want that. "I don't want Nero to do the same to you...maybe if I talk to him, I can keep him from taking Narcisse. I won't let him ruin Narcisse's life too." Naveen turned and gently pressed a kiss against her son's forehead.